TALK TO YOUR MOIRAIL, GALLEY.

armchairdesperado:

bustedcrankshaft:

armchairdesperado:

bustedcrankshaft:

BC: x don’t know what black feels lxke. but x really lxked xt.

BC: maybe we moved leafs on the clover and nobody was here to pull us apart.

BC: xs that a thxng that can happen

BC: because x don’t thxnk x mxnded overmuch.

"Well… cool." Cheeks burning, you glance sideways at him. "So like… next time you’re bein’ a pain in my ass, I can chew on your ears?"

BC: yes please.

You snuffle a silent laugh out through your nose and bury yourself in partially crispy pillows.

BC: x would lxke that very much, thank you.

"Good," you say, flashing a grin, "cuz that face you made when you was eating, dude, that was such a dick move. I worked hard makin’ that, you asshole.” And with that, you flop over on him and give his ear a good gnawing before burying your nose in his curls and relaxing.

Your ankles only come halfway down his shins, the asshole. Fuckin’ tall people.

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BC: soooo dark ashen snuggles are a thxng, apparently.

BC: who knew.

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armchairdesperado:

bustedcrankshaft:

armchairdesperado:

bustedcrankshaft:

armchairdesperado:

You’re starting to worry about running out of sock to knit before Galley’s done trolling everyone, but then at last he heaves a huge sigh and flops back against the remains of the pillow pile.

"So?" you prompt, and poke him lightly in the knee with your free needle. "Are Lu and Bel out for my blood or what?"

BC: Bel wants to try the thxng you dxd somewhere around here

(you indicate with your hands)

BC: LL seemed kxnd of upset at fxrst, and both of them seem to sort of shxp xt.

BC: bel told me x should be very clear about that x dxd not use you and that was not just a hatefap that you happened to walk nook-fxrst xnto, so. there’s that.

BC: um.

You think about that. You slowly poke the free needle into the fabric of the sock and set the project aside, draw up one knee and lace your fingers over it. “I’m a lil confused now, bro, cuz you said you don’t hate me like that. I mean… I ain’t upset if you was just venting off some mad. And I ain’t so cheesed off at you that I gotta fuck it out. I mean. Uh.” You study your thumbs, scratching at the worn denim over your kneecap. “For a lil bit there flippin’ black with you sounded fuckin’ awesome. But that don’t mean we oughtta.”

BC: x don’t know what black feels lxke. but x really lxked xt.

BC: maybe we moved leafs on the clover and nobody was here to pull us apart.

BC: xs that a thxng that can happen

BC: because x don’t thxnk x mxnded overmuch.

"Well… cool." Cheeks burning, you glance sideways at him. "So like… next time you’re bein’ a pain in my ass, I can chew on your ears?"

BC: yes please.

You snuffle a silent laugh out through your nose and bury yourself in partially crispy pillows.

BC: x would lxke that very much, thank you.

armchairdesperado:

bustedcrankshaft:

armchairdesperado:

You’re starting to worry about running out of sock to knit before Galley’s done trolling everyone, but then at last he heaves a huge sigh and flops back against the remains of the pillow pile.

"So?" you prompt, and poke him lightly in the knee with your free needle. "Are Lu and Bel out for my blood or what?"

BC: Bel wants to try the thxng you dxd somewhere around here

(you indicate with your hands)

BC: LL seemed kxnd of upset at fxrst, and both of them seem to sort of shxp xt.

BC: bel told me x should be very clear about that x dxd not use you and that was not just a hatefap that you happened to walk nook-fxrst xnto, so. there’s that.

BC: um.

You think about that. You slowly poke the free needle into the fabric of the sock and set the project aside, draw up one knee and lace your fingers over it. “I’m a lil confused now, bro, cuz you said you don’t hate me like that. I mean… I ain’t upset if you was just venting off some mad. And I ain’t so cheesed off at you that I gotta fuck it out. I mean. Uh.” You study your thumbs, scratching at the worn denim over your kneecap. “For a lil bit there flippin’ black with you sounded fuckin’ awesome. But that don’t mean we oughtta.”

BC: x don’t know what black feels lxke. but x really lxked xt.

BC: maybe we moved leafs on the clover and nobody was here to pull us apart.

BC: xs that a thxng that can happen

BC: because x don’t thxnk x mxnded overmuch.

armchairdesperado:

You’re starting to worry about running out of sock to knit before Galley’s done trolling everyone, but then at last he heaves a huge sigh and flops back against the remains of the pillow pile.

"So?" you prompt, and poke him lightly in the knee with your free needle. "Are Lu and Bel out for my blood or what?"

BC: Bel wants to try the thxng you dxd somewhere around here

(you indicate with your hands)

BC: LL seemed kxnd of upset at fxrst, and both of them seem to sort of shxp xt.

BC: bel told me x should be very clear about that x dxd not use you and that was not just a hatefap that you happened to walk nook-fxrst xnto, so. there’s that.

BC: um.

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

CH: * I think I sort of understand.

CH: * I don’t know what to do about it, but I don’t blame you at all. And he’s still struggling with the idea that the hemocaste system is not totally fair and just, so I wouldn’t completely trust him yet in any case.

CH: * What if you and he talked in the house memo, where the rest of us are also seeing it? Then you’d know we’ve got your back.

BC: yeah, maybe.

BC: um

BC: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

BC: that xs a lot of pump bxscuxts but x thought x should make up for lost txme.

BC: x’ll sleep now. xs xt okay xf X touch jethro some more.

BC: x don’t feel red for hxm at all but. y’know.

CH: * I’m not jealous or anything, I think it’s really cute, you guys have fun. :)

CH: * I’m so glad you’re in my life, Enkidi. <3 <3 <3

CH: * Sleep well!

CH: * Oh wait —

CH: * You might not remember talking about having me make a brace for your horn, but you were in “whatever you think is best, highblood” mode anyway, so I can’t take what you said then as your real opinion.

CH: * Do you want a gold band? I was thinking I could melt down some of my jewelry. It’s not like I want to show off at dressup parties anymore.

BC: uh

BC: x don’t know. x don’t have to look at xt, so

BC: whatever you thxnk xs best, hxghblood

BC: shxt sorry

BC: too soon?

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

BC: thank you for stxll lovxng me even when x don’t.

BC: x’m goxng to sleep now. maybe when x wake up x’ll feel safe enough to be near someone hxgher than green.

BC: um

BC: xs he around?

BC: the arxstocrat?

CH: * He’s right here, we’re on the beach freezing our asses off.

CH: * Do you want me to tell/ask him anything? You could also troll him yourself, I am now confident he’ll be polite and not weird about it.

BC: x’m too afraxd.

BC: that’s been my problem thxs entxre txme.

BC: that’s why x’ve been such a douchewad about hxm ever sxnce you met

BC: even up to goxng to that horrxble, horrxble medxcal appoxntment and pretendxng xt dxdn’t bother me

BC: x’m terrxfxed of hxm.

BC: and before you tell me anythxng about how at least now x know he means me no harm, xt doesn’t matter, bel

BC: x’m even more afraxd of hxm than x was when x thought x knew what he wanted to do to me

BC: because now he could do anythxng, and x’d probably let hxm. and even though he obvxously xsn’t that kxnd of person, that xs almost worse xn a way, because at least x would know what to expect.

CH: * I think I sort of understand.

CH: * I don’t know what to do about it, but I don’t blame you at all. And he’s still struggling with the idea that the hemocaste system is not totally fair and just, so I wouldn’t completely trust him yet in any case.

CH: * What if you and he talked in the house memo, where the rest of us are also seeing it? Then you’d know we’ve got your back.

BC: yeah, maybe.

BC: um

BC: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

BC: that xs a lot of pump bxscuxts but x thought x should make up for lost txme.

BC: x’ll sleep now. xs xt okay xf X touch jethro some more.

BC: x don’t feel red for hxm at all but. y’know.

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

CH: * He taught you some new tricks? I can’t wait. :D

CH: * Maybe you should talk to him and make sure he knows you weren’t using him. I’m learning that communication is just as important in a blackrom as in any other quadrant.

CH: * Erskin and I have been running around like idiots, he’s been making an effort to keep me busy and distracted so I don’t worry.

CH: * We played tag and pissed off Dad, and had a weeding competition, and there is still dirt and weeds down my shirt, heh.

CH: * Oh, and we chased off another of his dumb caliginous suitors, the guy’s probably drifting around the island now nursing his ego and nerving himself up for another go.

BC: okay. x’ll tell hxm.

BC: um.

BC: x’m sorry x dxdn’t remember you.

BC: x remember the rxng was really xmportant, but x couldn’t remember why.

BC: but x sort of knew LL was my moxraxl.

BC: does that mean x don’t love you enough, or

BC: god sorry no x don’t mean to ask xt lxke that

BC: sorry

CH: * Darling, that’s one of the things I don’t want to talk about while you’re still feeling raw. Because it’s not your fault how it made me feel.

CH: * My insecurities aren’t your job to fix.

CH: * If you

CH: * No, I love you forever and that’s all there is to say on the topic. <3

BC: thank you for stxll lovxng me even when x don’t.

BC: x’m goxng to sleep now. maybe when x wake up x’ll feel safe enough to be near someone hxgher than green.

BC: um

BC: xs he around?

BC: the arxstocrat?

CH: * He’s right here, we’re on the beach freezing our asses off.

CH: * Do you want me to tell/ask him anything? You could also troll him yourself, I am now confident he’ll be polite and not weird about it.

BC: x’m too afraxd.

BC: that’s been my problem thxs entxre txme.

BC: that’s why x’ve been such a douchewad about hxm ever sxnce you met

BC: even up to goxng to that horrxble, horrxble medxcal appoxntment and pretendxng xt dxdn’t bother me

BC: x’m terrxfxed of hxm.

BC: and before you tell me anythxng about how at least now x know he means me no harm, xt doesn’t matter, bel

BC: x’m even more afraxd of hxm than x was when x thought x knew what he wanted to do to me

BC: because now he could do anythxng, and x’d probably let hxm. and even though he obvxously xsn’t that kxnd of person, that xs almost worse xn a way, because at least x would know what to expect.

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

CH: * He taught you some new tricks? I can’t wait. :D

CH: * Maybe you should talk to him and make sure he knows you weren’t using him. I’m learning that communication is just as important in a blackrom as in any other quadrant.

CH: * Erskin and I have been running around like idiots, he’s been making an effort to keep me busy and distracted so I don’t worry.

CH: * We played tag and pissed off Dad, and had a weeding competition, and there is still dirt and weeds down my shirt, heh.

CH: * Oh, and we chased off another of his dumb caliginous suitors, the guy’s probably drifting around the island now nursing his ego and nerving himself up for another go.

BC: okay. x’ll tell hxm.

BC: um.

BC: x’m sorry x dxdn’t remember you.

BC: x remember the rxng was really xmportant, but x couldn’t remember why.

BC: but x sort of knew LL was my moxraxl.

BC: does that mean x don’t love you enough, or

BC: god sorry no x don’t mean to ask xt lxke that

BC: sorry

CH: * Darling, that’s one of the things I don’t want to talk about while you’re still feeling raw. Because it’s not your fault how it made me feel.

CH: * My insecurities aren’t your job to fix.

CH: * If you

CH: * No, I love you forever and that’s all there is to say on the topic. <3

BC: thank you for stxll lovxng me even when x don’t.

BC: x’m goxng to sleep now. maybe when x wake up x’ll feel safe enough to be near someone hxgher than green.

BC: um

BC: xs he around?

BC: the arxstocrat?

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

CH: * He tried in his clumsy way to trick me into admitting it if I was holding you prisoner or using you. He was so angry about it.

CH: * I think I have the log

CH: * here, look at this

CH: * He was ready to fight me on your behalf, even though he’s still a casteist dick and keeps referring to you as ‘your lowblood’ whenever he doesn’t make the effort to use your name.

CH: * It’s too soon to trust him with your whole story, but I have hope now that maybe we’ll be able to.

CH: * So um.

CH: * You and Jethro flipped black, huh.

CH: * …

CH: * Hot. :D

BC: x dxdn’t know xt would happen.

BC: xt was nxce, though. x never dxd xt wxth someone caste-approprxate to my statxon before. there was no fear x’d have to do anythxng x dxdn’t want to do or get someone else xn trouble.

BC: we’re gonna have to try some of the stuff he dxd to me hahaha.

BC: um

BC: x hope he doesn’t thxnk x was just usxng hxm.

CH: * He taught you some new tricks? I can’t wait. :D

CH: * Maybe you should talk to him and make sure he knows you weren’t using him. I’m learning that communication is just as important in a blackrom as in any other quadrant.

CH: * Erskin and I have been running around like idiots, he’s been making an effort to keep me busy and distracted so I don’t worry.

CH: * We played tag and pissed off Dad, and had a weeding competition, and there is still dirt and weeds down my shirt, heh.

CH: * Oh, and we chased off another of his dumb caliginous suitors, the guy’s probably drifting around the island now nursing his ego and nerving himself up for another go.

BC: okay. x’ll tell hxm.

BC: um.

BC: x’m sorry x dxdn’t remember you.

BC: x remember the rxng was really xmportant, but x couldn’t remember why.

BC: but x sort of knew LL was my moxraxl.

BC: does that mean x don’t love you enough, or

BC: god sorry no x don’t mean to ask xt lxke that

BC: sorry

GALLEY: PING BEL

askcrossfirehurricane:

bustedcrankshaft:

askcrossfirehurricane:

CH: * I’m

CH: * not sure I should tell you what I think right now, sweetness.

CH: * Everything is kind of intense and you don’t sound like you’re up for dealing with it right now.

CH: * Can I just say I’m glad you’re back and I’m not blaming you and I love you a lot?

CH: * At the risk of making you have to feel stuff — do you remember meeting Erskin? He said you fell out of a tree and he caught you, which basically means he saved your life, and I don’t doubt his word but I’d feel more confident if I heard it from you too.

BC: X don’t remember fallxng out of the tree but X do remember clxmbxng xt and fallxng asleep, so he’s probably rxght about me fallxng out. everythxng xs all foggy, but x was runnxng away from a hxghblood who was goxng to capture me and put me back xn a tank. x remember he yelled at me to stop, and x just

BC: flxpped back xnto obedxence mode.

BC: xt was that easy.

BC: sxnce he had me alone for however long after that and dxdn’t flag down an xmperxal patrol, x assume he xs probably tellxng the truth about the rest.

BC: x took all my clothes off for hxm and everythxng. he dxdn’t touch me.

BC: he dxdn’t even look.

CH: * He tried in his clumsy way to trick me into admitting it if I was holding you prisoner or using you. He was so angry about it.

CH: * I think I have the log

CH: * here, look at this

CH: * He was ready to fight me on your behalf, even though he’s still a casteist dick and keeps referring to you as ‘your lowblood’ whenever he doesn’t make the effort to use your name.

CH: * It’s too soon to trust him with your whole story, but I have hope now that maybe we’ll be able to.

CH: * So um.

CH: * You and Jethro flipped black, huh.

CH: * …

CH: * Hot. :D

BC: x dxdn’t know xt would happen.

BC: xt was nxce, though. x never dxd xt wxth someone caste-approprxate to my statxon before. there was no fear x’d have to do anythxng x dxdn’t want to do or get someone else xn trouble.

BC: we’re gonna have to try some of the stuff he dxd to me hahaha.

BC: um

BC: x hope he doesn’t thxnk x was just usxng hxm.